Dickson

2010-12-16T02:53:00.001-08:00

screw it.im actually thinking of you.11 july.

Looking back,why,why did i do that?

2009-12-29T01:55:00.000-08:00

you are ever so elusive.

2009-09-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

How can i cheer you up?i know affairs of the heart are complex and its not up to an outsider like me to decide on who's right or who's wrong.
But if you were to ask me,i am 100% convinced that you deserve better!
Don let such an incident affect you too long and too much.
I know its sad for it to end this way but you and I know that it wont go far,right?
So please cheer up and get on with life.
There are still much things in life that you have never enjoyed young boy..

SMILE!!We are here for you every moment..Just let us know if u need anyone to confide in(:

2009-08-24T06:44:00.000-07:00

went out to celebrate cheng's birthday on sat night..

just fucking awesome man...!never had such a relaxing and enjoyable time for a frigging long timme!!

few more hours to your bday man bro(:

2009-08-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

had great time with zer and ches today.
"lectured" me quite abit on some stuff and thanks guys for your concern(:

NO MORE STICKS!

Life is just like a boxing match.
It rains down punches and blows on you.
A winner will get up on his feet to retaliate,
a loser will just lie flat and lick his wounds.

2009-08-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

"hey sweetie don go,stay with me."

2009-08-08T07:34:00.000-07:00

damn...

did something that i shouldnt have done last night..
still,it was quite enjoyable,at least for that moment.

2009-06-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

to the world,

you all dont know what i have been thinking and going through!

SO STOP ASKING

2009-01-17T02:29:00.000-08:00

on this fateful friday..

Lessons on Friday for me ends at 12.30.
went to kfc to eat with my friends and after that went back to sch and started reading up some notes to kill time.Not long after,Bo Zhong joined me and as usual,we were fooling around.

4pm

training starts.As usual Jovian led the team with warm ups and ball drills.team spirit was high as usual and everything was going fine.

6.10pm

As usual,at the last part of training,both guys and girls will take turns and have exclusive use of the pitch.Guys will play first as usual.However something unusual and certainly unexpected took place.

6.30pm

20 minutes into the game,my team,consisting of Jovian,went down on 1 goal due to a penalty which was due to my mistake.Within 5 minutes after that,at the far side of the pitch,Jovian was seen on the ground.He was whining and groaning painfully.It just took a few seconds.We rushed to his side.He was unable to get up.

6.40pm

we called the ambulance but they will take 30 to 45 minutes to come.Mr lee then decided to drive him there.But he was still unable to get up and even open his eyes full.He was just holding on to his arm.We all feared for the worst.

6.45pm

"okay guys.Obviously training is over.pack up and you all may go."
just this mere sentence.Simple and short.And it left the remaining of us into a frenzy.Losing our captain isnt a easy fact to swallow.Morale was down.Some sat together and discussed about what happened.Some debated about the magnitude of Jovian 's injury.While others was simply shell-shocked,and held aback by this crazy 15 minutes,staring hard at the ground as if it would help.

With this training ended abruptly,as well as possibly the hope of some achievement for this season.Though morale is down,im sure that as a team,we can tide through this period,as well as walking together with Jovian through this time of hardship.

Today

went to see Jovian at cgh with some soccer mates.Situation was far worse than what we expected and i dont want to elaborate.the jorney back home from cgh was quiet.We all were silent while walking to eastpoint.Even the usual jokers lik BZ stayed dead silent...

-dickson

2009-01-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

after today,i keep thinking bout you..

2009-01-07T06:13:00.000-08:00

after a long break from blogging,i think its time to start again(:

had soccer training today.Without the presence of our capt,today's training was VERY slack and it was more like a soccer carnival rather than a formal training.Attendance was pathetic as usual and everyone looked sluggish but we still managed a couple of laughs.Enjoy being in the company of those ppl(:

went home straight after training.the sun was scorching and it practically drained all the water in me!my face was so red that i looked like i had been blushing all this while!

going to mug at the airport tmr and also accomplish something that i have always wanted to do but lack the courage to!tsk tsk lousy me...

"Whats the point if you dont understand?!"

-dickson

2009-01-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

2008-12-22T03:47:00.000-08:00

Singapore o-1 Vietnam,

Liverpool 1-1 Arsenal,

Love story by Taylor Swift,

Kallang Riverside park,

Photo y2k game...

i need counseling.serious.

2008-12-13T23:34:00.000-08:00

!@#!@!##$!#!)...

2008-12-05T09:03:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is the day yo!!(:

excited!!going airport tomorrow and hope luck is on my side..

i want to see you!!

-dickson(having a bad cold)

2008-12-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

fifth day...

The night smells so fresh,the sky so tempting..
i yearn to be out there with you..

2008-12-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

third day)):

i miss you

"It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life"

First Day

2008-11-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

First Day.

The first thing i thought of when i woke up:"have you arrived Japan safely?"

sort of celebrated my bday today.went out with my family,bowled and had a gd dinner(:

just wished you were here with me..

"what you doing now?"
"is it cold there?"

One day down,6 more days to go..

-dickson

2008-11-27T20:50:00.000-08:00

alas,im finally back home!!

Hainan island was ok.didnt buy alot of stuff.But we ate like kings la,which is good enough for me.

before going to the airport at 4pm.we were quite groggy but excited.

On the plane..

okay so after 3 hrs on the 6.30 flight,here we are at Hainan island,my mom's supposedly hometown since shes a hainanese.

okay so this is our hotel room at Meritus Mandarin.Its actually 2 rooms with a common door so its rather big la..nice(:

So,the first day was spent checking out the hotel facilities and exploring the vicinity of the hotel or beyond for any good food.

camwhoring while exploring the area(:

oh ya and since our hotel has a gym and a indoor swimming pool,we decided to make good use of it(:

after swimming..eh those bananas are to restore the carbo lost..hehe

random photo after bathing..

the second day was spent partly on the visit to the local zoo.Their zoo has a different concept from that of the Spore zoo as it is of a open concept.That means we travel in the zoo with animals crawling around.

On the right is apparently a mixed breed of a lion and a tiger..wth..on the left is the tiger mommy..

papa lion!!

Above is another mixed breed of a squirrel and a monkey..wth?!

camwhore!!with a bin?!?!

oh wait!!i missed out the bestest part of this trip.the FOOD!!

Ingredients for steamboat..
YUMMY!!

it may nt be clear but this dish is actually on fire..dont know how they do it but the waiter just come,pour some liquid on the dish n boom!fire..haha my bro was like "wtf?!?"

some group photos to end with...

the above one is with a waitress in the hotel(:

overall this trip wasnt one with alot of sceneries n stuff.but at least it was quite relaaaxing and also a good time tgt with my family.thought about alot of stuff there too and sort out most but just glad that im back here(:

"THE END"

2008-11-21T06:07:00.000-08:00

"Where are you?Have you just disappeared?!"

bad bad day for me..shouldnt elaborate further..

1 day for you and me..wasted...

"Where you go,
I miss you so."

-dickson):

2008-11-20T06:02:00.000-08:00

tis sat will be our football friendly against our seniors of the 2005 batch..and i have just been notified that i will be playing the role of striker instead of right wing.Though i have always wanted to play forward,but im seriously clueless..shit..very nervous..alas nvm la just try my best..

tis few days,i have been telling myself,"its ok,its really ok...."

2 more days for you n me...

): x 10

-dickson

2008-11-19T06:06:00.000-08:00

now that i know you are doing well,
at least it relieves some of my burden..

-dickson

2008-11-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

didnt blog as my com was out for the past few days..Anyways..

had double session of training..first cage training in the morninh and then went back to sch for training in the afternoon..

whole body was aching when i woke up today..went Vivo to catch a movie today but didnt see who i wanted to see..oh well..

i guess if you really want something/someone badly, you have to put in your heart and soul in getting it/her/him?..or else in the end if you dont,you will be cursing youself hard on why you didnt give your very best..

i intially thought we should leave it to chance or rather fate,but if it is something/someone you really really desire,you have it fight for it..

"cus you really look so fine,
and i wanna make you mine."

-dickson

2008-11-14T05:04:00.000-08:00

tonight is the prom night for the current batch of sec 4s..and..it also led me to reminisce those good old times....

on a happier note,went swimming today and lunch at tm..then went to search for a book at Times and Popular..

Okay it may sound crazy for me to look for a book as those who know me will know that im not an avid reader..But i just had to find that book and of course read it..Luckily,i found it at last!!(it must be fate heheh)

Without any second thoughts,i knew i had to buy it..but i still pondered a while because if i buy it,that goes the money for my meals tmr..Tmr i will be out for the whole day for cip..

Nevertheless,i decided to go ahead with my heart and yes,i purchased it!!
Trying very hard to decipher the contents of the book as you all may not know, its by Shakespeare..

"The course of true love never did run smooth."

-dickson

2008-11-13T05:50:00.000-08:00

2008-11-13T05:07:00.001-08:00

): x 5

1 ): = 1 bad thing that happened today..

2008-11-11T02:08:00.000-08:00

arghh..

so had training yesterday,the first time i played after 2 weeks out due to strained ligament..Everything was going rather smoothly when halfway through,i felt my ligament twitch again.Towards the end,it became more of an acute pain.After training, the pain starts to set in and i couldnt walk like a normal person could..FUCK!!

i initially thought i had gotten over it but its back! Okay so next sat will be our friendly against the 2005 soccer boys..Me not going to miss it for anything!!

pop painkillers or apply cream, whatever!have to get the pain off me..

it gets so sickening when i cant even walk properly...

-dickson

2008-11-09T04:21:00.000-08:00

it all boils down to the SAME question.

"Should I or should I not?"

yes,i think i should because its too much for me to give up n I DON WANT to let it just go like that.

but...

no i should not because i may be forcing it and things may turn out to be disastrous.

hey,why not you tell me what to do

-dickson:P

2008-11-07T08:27:00.000-08:00

nt going to blog about the chalet..till i get the photos..

seriously why is it that we cant just open each other's heart and know what they are thinking?
Why is it that we have to speculate and predict the opposite's move in order to facilitate ours?
Why is it that when you try so hard to change the current situation, nothing seem to work?
I thought hard work pays off?
Why do you still brood over so many things when they are all actually unnecessary?
Why is it so difficult for you to understand?your presence irks me.period.
Why is it so hard to find solace and comfort?
Can you stay by my side?

these are some questions that I really feel like asking some people out there,though these arent everything..

-dickson

2008-11-03T08:15:00.000-08:00

Qn: So should I or should I not?

Answer:Follow your feelings.If you feel right,move forward and do it.But if you feel bad about it,dont do it.

im glad i did..takes a hell lot of weight off me(:

-dickson

2008-11-01T04:40:00.000-07:00

had quite an awesome night yesterday,considering op was finally over and had quite an interesting night out..

watched 'The Coffin' at kallang leisure park and left the cinema feeling rather confused and unsure of the movie..im sure some of the ppl even slept during the show cus we hear someone let up a huge yawn..zzz..

discovered a damn cool place just outside the leisure park..
windy and especially awesome at night..
will definitely go back there again(:

-dickson

2008-10-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

seeing is believing...

now i just have to slowly adapt to it n change my former mindset(:
i can do it.

"I try 2 read.

I go 2 work.

I'm laughing with my friends.

But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking."

-dickson

2008-10-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

The past,its haunting me...

"you and i.."

2008-10-24T05:39:00.000-07:00

i m stuck in my thoughts,again..

"When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes."

-dickson

2008-10-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

feel so freaking dreadful today)))):

okay as all of you know, i have to sit out training for at least 2 weeks due to my ligament.but the worse thing isnt about the physical pain i'm feeling..rather,i feel emotionally shattered..

while the boys have their training in the afternoon,i feel sad because i can only watch from afar and cant join in.how i rreally rrreally wish i was right there,with them training..no matter how physically draining or mentally straining,i really want to join them..

whenever i'm fit and join training, i will always complain about how tiring it is and always look forward to water breaks n all..

but now i rather train all the way without stopping than like now..out for 2 weeks):

its all about,"Losing,Regretting and then Cherishing.."
its a vicious cycle and i'm pretty sure this 3 processes happen to alot of ppl out there,n of course me..

we just have to learn from our past,but yet look forward to the future n of course enjoy the present!!

"dont try to read my mind..
cus u cant n will never.."

-dickson

2008-10-21T02:11:00.000-07:00

okay so what's new?i m officially out for 2 weeks.

i strained my ligament last week and aggravated the problem in ytd's training):

Life is indeed unpredictable.
Just when i thought eveything has gone back to normal and can finally resume training, this have to happen..

okay life is still wonderful la!!
9 more days to HOLIDAYS(:

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life

-dickson

2008-10-17T04:56:00.000-07:00

i m so gonna start life afresh..!

like writing on a new piece of paper,im not going to let what burdened me last time burden me again..no way..

-dickson

2008-10-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

tmr is the release of the final results, n it determines whether i will promote or retain..

but actually i think i should be able to promote as a borderline case la..but somehow still feel quite nervous bout tmr..

tis week is quite horrid for me..the release of results,op n many more..i m so stressed out then i don hav a good nite's sleep for almost every nite..often waking up at nite,checking the time n trying to fall asleep again..

wish tis trauma will quickly go away):

-dickson

2008-10-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

tmr is D DAY for me cus we r gonna get our econs n gp results back..

its either make or break for me because if i fail econs, tats really the end of me n of course the only option is to retain(if i were to stay in jc)..

i seriously don wanna spend another 2 hectic years in tjc..
its nt that i don lik the ppl i hav met here, but rather its the environment tat makes me detest sch.

seriously have to consider my options if i fail econs..of cus dropping to poly is a highly likely option for me..

but there r things in tjc that i find hard to let go..the frens,the team n all..

AIYA HECK LA..come what may...

-dickson

2008-10-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

just gt back my promos result today..

flunked chem n failed maths n physics by some marks..i just hope tat my results for phy n maths can be moderated to a pass..as for chem,its hopeless ald because my marks are so low that even if it is moderated lik 3 or 4 times,i will still fail):

my wish for now is very very simple..just let me promote!!
sick n tired of worrying so damn much for my results..

i m so so disgusted with all these..):

2008-10-03T05:14:00.000-07:00

saw tis at asheem's blog n decided to hav a go at it!!got tis answers..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2008-10-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

went to luojie's hostel for pw on tue n spent a dreadful 6 hrs there..omg 6 hrs of pw can u imagine?!?!
towards the end all of us were so damn lethargic ald la!! actually wanted to bowl wif denisa after tat but was quite lazy so we called it off..

went shopping on wed wif my ian n xt..we shopped here n there,ate lunch n continued shopping till we drop!i muz admit tat we guys r jux nt made for shopping cus after only lik 1 hr plus we were ald complaining and whining away..ended the day wif a game of pool at ehub..initially wented to c rashvin off at the airport but as our timing kinda clash, we didnt..

its ok bro..see u in dec!!

today was quite a fun day but only towards the end of the day cus me,denisa,esther n Binghao went safra to play!!darts,pool,bowl n table soccer..all in the space of 2 hrs plus!!wa shiok la sia!!

i hate going to school tis few days because of OP presentation which kinda kill my mood for anything..just wan2 get it over n done with la wth!!

but for now,POOL is the new love(:(:

2008-09-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

PROMOS IS FINALLY OVER!

just back from class outing..it was more fun than i hav actually expected..
went to marina to bowl n hav dinner..saw alot of familiar faces,both from tjc n dunman..
the whole outing was enjoyable throughout, with Esther's bimbotic statements, to Angelina's constant chatter n "Titanic 2"..its was really fun though the attendance was a mere 10..

while bowling halfway though, i suddenly had a lapse of concentration n didnt played well due to some ' really very unforeseen circumstances'..):

though the outing was really enjoyable, i somehow feel kinda down at times..but heck la promos is over n i should feel happy.. shall shut out all negative feelings..

if u don care, i shall nt bother too..

anyway, we uncovered a bowling queen in our midst la!!unexpected sia..tat gal has the same initials wif me somemore..!

oh n denisa..u owe me an ICE CREAM!!!(:

2008-09-26T05:51:00.001-07:00

i hav screwed up maths n chem):

When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind
And you mean to me
What I mean to you
And together baby
There is nothin we won't do
Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my all..

-dickson

2008-09-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

econs is down!!
3 more papers to go!
but next up is chem..i m so running low on confidence laaa....):
chem is @#E$R%&*&^%

shall just get it over n done with..

2008-09-23T05:57:00.001-07:00

GP IS DOWWNNNN!!

1 down,4 more to go(:

2008-09-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

5 more days to promos.......

although i m SUPER SUPER nervous, i rather my promos to come quickly n i can just get it over n done with..n oso finish up PW before i can really take a BREAK from all this jc stuff..leave jc life during the hols n jux do wat i lik best(:

came back at ard ten plus after mugging at macs..another day gone..tmr is a brand new day n more mugging awaits me):

AHH!!its a vicious cycle.

2008-09-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

As the days go by, the promos examination is just round the corner.i can almost feel it.With every single tjcian preparing for it, students can be seen studying in certain corners of the school, in the canteen, on buses, in the parade ground n even while they r walking.The situation is getting more n more tense while similarly i m getting more n more tensed up.Doubts of my capability frequented my mind and somehow whenever in tutorial, i feel a sense of inferiority overcome me. Especially at times when certain ppl in my class answers Qns like there is no tmr. i jux feel demoralised cus i hav Qns that i really don understand, but yet ppl are answering it "free-flowingly".

Friends around me hav a simple wish n tat is to retain their subject combination of 4 h2 subjects...

but i hav an even simpler wish, n tat is to be promoted to j2 next yr..pls, i hav to do it n i will!!

Comtemplating a move to poly if results dont go my way..

-dickson):

2008-09-13T08:54:00.000-07:00

yeshhh!!

LIVERPOOL 2-1 MANCHESTER UNITED...

OMG!!never in my wildest dream hav i expected lpool to win man u at tis point in time, esp when torres n gerrard were nt fully fit..but don ever write us off cus we r LIVERPOOL!

all i can say is lpool played well n yup, we deserve to win..Man u looked out of sort tonite but aiya who cares la since lpool win..

did maths the whole day n alot of sums dunno how to do..):then went to my uncle's house for dinner n oso the lpool match..heehee..

yesh lpool won...omg omg!!!!@#$%^&*()

2008-09-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

time check: 11.27pm..

nt considered late, but nt early either..nt much concentration tonite for any revision..plan to just complete my assignments due tmr n then go to bed..jux feel too lethargic to memorise anything..

a typical long day in sch for thurs but ironically, thurdays hav always been one of the few enjoyable days of the week..dunno why..second day of POWER RANGER ACTION today..got alot of funny stares from ppl..aiya expected la sia!!

for those who dunno, asheem n ben bought 3 power ranger watches(1 is supposed to be mine) n we will wear them to sch everyday..it comes with a trigger which when pressed, a plastic piece will 'SHOOT' ( haha inside joke!) out n reveal the time..sounds kinda lame but believe it or nt, the 3 of us derive alot of fun out of the watches!!(:

back to my revision which i really feel lik giving up!tons of notes to read,tutorials to practice n lastly TYS!!!holy shit!

jux found out tat immediately after our last paper,we still hav to rush out our OP for presentation..OMG!!

I M SO NT GONNA MAKE IT LAAA!!

2008-09-10T03:58:00.000-07:00

reality check: 13 days to promos..

finally started on chemistry today but still hav alot of things to cover...):
i m a goner man!but anw really looking forward to after promos n the dreaded OP for pw..

2008-09-03T05:19:00.000-07:00

oh no..oh no..i m SO SO CONFUSED!!
i seriously gt no idea what life has in store for me...

lifes a craze!!

2008-08-31T07:27:00.000-07:00

completed the nike human race despite a cold!!yeah(:

saw alot of tjcians n surprisingly some ex rss ppl too..had dinner at Swensens after tat n went home cus we were pretty tired..

ahh!!there is still cip tmr..early in the moornniingg!!!

i want my sleep):

2008-08-25T06:07:00.000-07:00

went to church as usual ytd n after the sermon, the pastor told us a story....

One day, a boy asked his dad to take him to join a marathon n despite his heart condition, his dad said,"yes,sure."

On a few more occasions, the boy asked his dad repeatedly to take him to marathon after marathon n his dad obliged.

However one day, the boy asked his dad to bring him to join the Ironman Triathlon.The race encompasses three endurance events; a 2.4 mile (3.8 km) ocean swim, a 112 mile (180 km) bike ride, and a marathon (26.2 mile, 42 km). Again his dad agreed n tis is how they completed the race.........

2008-08-20T06:21:00.001-07:00

i know tis may look familiar to some of u but nonetheless i will still post tis...

Faith: is the belief and confidence tat u have in the things u do..believing in urself n in God..believing tat no matter how bad things may look, they will eventually turn out ok so long as u believe..
Without Faith, there will only be FEAR.

Hope: is to be able to c the potential in things n 2 be positive..Hope sustains ur 'stamina' in doing ur everyday stuff,be it the things u wan2 do or the things u dislike..
Without Hope, there will only be DESPAIR.

LOVE: is to joyfully n sacrificially give, n not receive, to ur loved ones..Giving is better than receiving.. but wats most impt is 2 give with a cheerful heart n nt up 2 only a certain limit..LOVE is veri prevalent in tis world n it is tis LOVE tat keeps human relations going strong thus makin the World a better place 2 live in..
Without LOVE, there will only be SELFISHNESS.

Basically there r 3 aspects of life tat God will impact u with so as 2 realise Faith,LOVE and Hope..n they r PEOPLE, EVENT N CIRCUMSTANCE..

In life, u will face ppl whom u don really lik, dire circumstances that u will hate 2 be in or perhaps upcoming events which u simply dread..However, these things may be God's way in reaching 2 u n cultivating Faith,LOVE and Hope.it is these 3 qualities tat will help tide u thru difficult times n sustain ur survival in tis not-so-perfect world..

n today is 20-08-2008!!2008 2008!!(:

n whats more we won our soccer game against our seniors n i scored 1!!(:

2008-08-19T05:12:00.000-07:00

here's a little update of the past few days..

SAT

went 4 a dance performance by some local organisation of some sort..the dances were too chim forme to comprehend..nonetheless, enjoyed the company of Denise, the big 'bully,Zheng Hui, the little guy who has grown tall ald n last but nt least Timo,my best pal..(:

Denise oso brought 2 frenz along but onli rmbed 1 who is called YiQi..17..haha(:

SUN

went out studying after church..it was partly cus of my bro whose frenz r coming to our house..they usually make a din in my house..oso because i cant seem to produce any work at home..so out i went n finally produce some decent work..(:

YESTERDAY

was a rather normal day except the usual crapping wif u no whos which really kept me going these days..helicopters, 'turn turn turn' were some of the topics..

N finally...TODAY!

had SPA today n screwed it up once again..despite revising the past practices again n again, i still managed to get the units all wrong...but nonetheless, i still feel kinda relieved cus i managed to complete the paper in the stipulated time,which i always fail to do so..

took a walk outside sch before painting the field..the walk was kinda refreshing n fun cus at least i don hav to stay in the sch for the whole day, which can be rather boring n stressful,seeing the ppl mugging in every corner of the sch..

hey n sheem thanks for ur encouragement before SPA..really calmed me down somehow..

Frenz kept telling me i look rather dull in sch tis days..well, if they were in my position, i bet they would feel gloomy too): but there r things which cheered me up n really thank you to those ppl who kept me going..

-dickson

standing at a crossroad now..do i take a step back, or continue moving...

2008-08-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

Ladies n Gentlemen, there is EXACTLY 39 DAYS TO PROMOS

don hav the mood 2 chiong n mug nw..its lik, i find the usual routine of doing tutorials n revising 4 lect. tests taxing ald..how can i even mug 4 promos?jia lat jia lat..):

anw, Asheem told me tat Dec twenty something 2012 will be the end of tis year..according 2 him, a kind of mayan calendar ended at tis particular date..haha..so we have decided 2 do smt tat we will enjoy..like nt studying,ogling etc etc..
whatever la...as if we can really nt study lik tat..zzz..

had lunch wif Asheem n Ben at KFC..they were acting lik a pair of newly wed couple..teasing each other,pretending 2 hide secrets from 1 another..n i m lik their child..an onlooker wif my pair of eyes darting from Ben 2 sheem n then 2 Ben..tsk tsk...anw jux be4 we left KFC, we(or rather me) gave 1 of the ppl eating there a 'PRESENT'(:

hope tat person will quickly 'unwrap' the present..(:

-dickson

2008-08-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

i too don deserve it...

2008-08-11T07:38:00.000-07:00

went swimming in the morning..felt really great after a workout in the waters!!

however, had a stupid flu 4 the whole day..my nose now is so damn freaking RED!!f---..

ahh..tats sch tmr...feel so lazy 2 wake up so early in the morning 2 go 2 sch...zzz...

-dickson

2008-08-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

today was our 4c dinner..n it was great..
though the attendance wasnt tat good(14 ppl), we had great time catching up n having a good meal tgt..
after tat, we went 2 the open plaza 2 chat..then 2 the interactive room 2 play MURDERER..lols..

had mixed feelings during the outing...felt nostalgic, n some sense of regret too):

anw, wish all of u a smooth-sailing life ahead ppl!!

-dickson

2008-08-08T08:55:00.000-07:00

nt been posting 4 a few days ald cus the past few days werent pleasant 4 me..i had 3 tests on thurs..n we lost a friendly match on wed..on top of tat,i was also criticized by a teacher cus of it..dang):

anyways, today is a happy day!its the national day eve n it falls on 8/8/08!!haha..
the celebration was kinda enjoyable n the whole hall was rather high..as a class,we held hands,put our hands ard each others' shoulders n sang the songs n cheers enthusiatically(:
really enjoyed today n it will surely be one of the most memorable days of my tj life(:

maybe i do need my candy afterall

-dickson

2008-08-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

Life is Fragile.

i finally understood tis n really felt deeply bout tis fact..

):

2008-08-01T08:31:00.000-07:00

mood nw is damn fucking sad..

jux watch a movie jux nw..Money Nt Enough 2..
though its a local production n some ppl are anti-local productions, the last part of the movie actually made me tear..
what actually happen i will nt divulge..u watch it n tell me whether its touching a nt..cus i really feel rather sad 4 the MOTHER in tat show..

anw, i m even more sad-ed when my civic tutor told me tat i most prob will be changing class next yr..which kept me thinkin how life would be without bitching partners lik Asheem n Ben..PW ppl lik denisa n yunjie..my long time frenz siling..n my 'gay' partner bing bing..dang!):

though Asheem kept saying tat we will still be in the same sch n probably attending similar lectures, i noe he himself feel sad bout it bt he onli wan2 cheer me up..thanks bro(:
appreciate tat veri much..

i noe tis may sound kinda random but after watching tat show,i finally realise smt in tis materialistic world..

'One is considered poor nt by the amt of money he/she has, but its bout the family n frens around him/her'..

2008-07-31T03:50:00.000-07:00

todays a long day n thank God, its over!!(:

though today was a long sch day, i enjoyed the bitching wif ashhem n ben, the random chat session wif jieling, si ling n fiona n teasing bing bing!!

these r the littles things in life tat makes me happy..but of cus not forgetting the 4c outing coming right up..i will be organising it so hopefully it turns up 2 be a success n every1 goes home happy(:

yes m tmr is friday, the last sch day of the week n wats more, i drop chem 2 h1..no more pracs!haha..

so long ppl!gonna stay on some work..tata!!

-dickson

2008-07-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

ahh..finally had time 2 blog..
today is a tiring day 4 me but luckily i had a power nap in the evening..yeah!but nonetheless, i m still gonna turn in early tonite cus i LOVE MY SLEEP!!(:

i shall keep tis posts cheerful n exclude all those "bad" stuff that happened today..
encountered 3 similar events tat made my day today..shall nt elaborate further..asheem n ben,pls pls pls keep it 2 urself!!urself!!screwed up my physic prac lik i always do..haha but i m nt gonna give it a damn.

anw,tmr there is the 5 items 4 fitness test n then soccer training!):

n tat blazer tink..meet at sc room then still come sports complex find us 4 wat?!lame..

gonna rub Counterpain on my thighs lik never be4...

-dickson

2008-07-28T07:40:00.000-07:00

finally back at home after a tiring day..
soccer training is nice today but it is damn damn tiring..
legs r cramping up ald!):

somemore tmr is the 2.4km run..wtf!!but luckily my dear fren jieling offered 2 bring me counterpain tmr!! awwwww...!thanks good "brother"(:

arghh..still got maths tutorial nt completed..oh well gtg now n catch my beauty sleep..tata..

2008-07-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

went back 2 dunman today speech day n omg!!it was nice seeing old frens all tgt again in the sch tat we studied tgt for 4 yrs..though the sch has nw been renovated, there are still tinges of nostalgic thoughts running thru my mind.

Esp when our brother(lao da), Aaron, went up the stage 2 deliver his speech as Distinctive Dunmanite of 2007,he recollected past 4c events which set me thinking.He really did us proud by winning tat highest accolade of the speech day event..good job bro!u did 4c proud!

after speech day, we went 2 watch 'DARK KNIGHTS' tgt..it was a really great show n full credit 2 the JOKER, by the late Heath Ledger. He definitely set my pulse running whenever he appeared on the screen n he acted the character of Joker to the fullest..(:

after the movie, we went 4 a quick dinner at KFC n headed home..really miss my old schoolmates n as i went home wif Kah Hwee, we wondered when will be the next time we will meet tgt again..in the midst of hectic schedules n cca commitments..

oh well..when the time comes, we will meet again(:

oh dang!didnt touch any of my books or sch stuff when i reached home..jux feel lik slacking at the way..drats but perhaps a whole week of e-learning has awaken the lazy side of me..

anw, did a tarot test n tis turned out 2 be my character or rather, my fate..

You are The Chariot

Triumph, Victory, Overcoming Obstacles.

The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory. Either over enemies, obstacles, nature, the beasts inside you, or to just get what you want. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary. It is a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

-dickson(:

2008-07-24T18:50:00.000-07:00

last nite some1 lectured me n somehow, i tink i finally woke up 2 my senses..

i have decided 2 do smt bout it...

veri sorry 2 tat 3 persons..

-dickson

2008-07-24T05:32:00.001-07:00

life has been a bore 4 the past few days..never blog 4 the past few days cus i really had nothing 2 blog n i tot mayb i jux accumulate 2 or 3 days then blog once..but i realise after 3 days, nothing really happened..

once again, i feel the emptiness in me..initially i tot i had gotten over all those stuff of the past..but somehow its still lingering inside me..
in the past, my schedules are so hectic tat i find going out once-a-week veri troublesome..but now, i start 2 cherish n appreciate those days..

those days when i need emotional support, tat 1 person will be there 4 me..
when i m bored, tat 1 person will msg me or even call me straight-away..
tat 1 person who will accompany me out every week without fail 2 help me de-stress..

once in a while, i will take a peek at my hp,jux 2 check if there r any msg,from anyone..but of cus, there isnt..

anw, those r ald the past..we live 4 the future rite?hopefully so..

i m still trying 2 adapt....

-dickson

2008-07-21T07:08:00.000-07:00

woah first day of e-learning is gone n i can tell u tat the e-learning 4 maths is kinda screwed man!
we hav 2 ans some stupid quiz Qns n if we get the answer wrong, it will redirect us back to the relevant pages 4 a revision.wth, so there i was going back to the relevant pages n then 2 the qn, to n fro..

waste my time!!!):

anw,tis past few days i feel rather empty..it is as if my heart is screaming, yearning 4 smt..
feel the urge 2 go out n chill wif frenz, catch a movie n hav dinner!!

gonna hav a much dreaded pw meeting tmr): BORING!!!
but its still ok cus i plan 2 jog at bedok reservoir after tat..train 4 marathon!!(:kambate!!

-dickson

2008-07-19T03:57:00.000-07:00

yeah sch breaks 4 a week of e-learning!!
which means no more hectic work schedule,no more homework n no more boring lectures!
but it oso means no more soccer training n most imptly, my candidness!!):

but still ok la..at least can sleep more n wake up a little bit LATER..haha.

lately, i have been suffering from some stuff of candy syndrome n i desperately need my candy!!

ASHEEM N BEN,HELP!!!!

-dickson

2008-07-17T04:50:00.000-07:00

oh no...i need my candy!!);

anw, didnt blog 4 the past few days as i was simply 2 tired 2 blog..

n it will be a short blog today 2 cus my head is spinning n i badly need SLEEP!

Donated blood jux nw n tats why i feel dizzy n a mild headache too..
but it was well worth it as i feel a sense of accomplishment(:

registered for the NIKE human race 10k run..haha yeah! finally smt tat i wanted 2 do 4 a veri long time(:
though its onli 10km tis round, i aim 4 a full marathon in the near future, i hope..

anw, bye peeps i m off 4 a nap...-yawns-

n i really need my candies!!

2008-07-14T05:51:00.000-07:00

its all over..8.10pm..11 of june..
gone r those happy days..but i tink 4 now, it may be the best option for us..

u cried..i cried too..a typical ending 4 a break-up?i suppose so..
the sermon ytd in church kept me pondering again..

they say:"Tears r a gift. Tears r God's gift 2 take inside 'pain' n bring it 2 the outside where it can be healed n produce fruit."
freaked out cus the sermon very much applied 2 wat had happened..

Carrying on.....

"God's solution for resolving loss of relationship or any other bad stuff is SADNESS. Tis sadness allows u 2 let go of wat u cant have in order 2 make room in ur heart 4 wat u can have...."

after tat sermon, i felt much relieved but somehow still feel the 'sense of emptiness' inside me..
i guess i need some time getting used 2 it..:(

anw, i wish u all the best in future n best of luck in watever u do..take good care of urself..

-dickson