seeing is believing...

now i just have to slowly adapt to it n change my former mindset(:
i can do it.

"I try 2 read.

I go 2 work.

I'm laughing with my friends.

But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking."



-dickson

The past,its haunting me...



"you and i.."

i m stuck in my thoughts,again..



"When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes."



-dickson

feel so freaking dreadful today)))):

okay as all of you know, i have to sit out training for at least 2 weeks due to my ligament.but the worse thing isnt about the physical pain i'm feeling..rather,i feel emotionally shattered..

while the boys have their training in the afternoon,i feel sad because i can only watch from afar and cant join in.how i rreally rrreally wish i was right there,with them training..no matter how physically draining or mentally straining,i really want to join them..

whenever i'm fit and join training, i will always complain about how tiring it is and always look forward to water breaks n all..

but now i rather train all the way without stopping than like now..out for 2 weeks):

its all about,"Losing,Regretting and then Cherishing.."
its a vicious cycle and i'm pretty sure this 3 processes happen to alot of ppl out there,n of course me..

we just have to learn from our past,but yet look forward to the future n of course enjoy the present!!



"dont try to read my mind..
cus u cant n will never.."



-dickson

okay so what's new?i m officially out for 2 weeks.

i strained my ligament last week and aggravated the problem in ytd's training):

Life is indeed unpredictable.
Just when i thought eveything has gone back to normal and can finally resume training, this have to happen..

okay life is still wonderful la!!
9 more days to HOLIDAYS(:



And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life





-dickson

i m so gonna start life afresh..!

like writing on a new piece of paper,im not going to let what burdened me last time burden me again..no way..


-dickson

tmr is the release of the final results, n it determines whether i will promote or retain..

but actually i think i should be able to promote as a borderline case la..but somehow still feel quite nervous bout tmr..

tis week is quite horrid for me..the release of results,op n many more..i m so stressed out then i don hav a good nite's sleep for almost every nite..often waking up at nite,checking the time n trying to fall asleep again..

wish tis trauma will quickly go away):


-dickson

tmr is D DAY for me cus we r gonna get our econs n gp results back..

its either make or break for me because if i fail econs, tats really the end of me n of course the only option is to retain(if i were to stay in jc)..

i seriously don wanna spend another 2 hectic years in tjc..
its nt that i don lik the ppl i hav met here, but rather its the environment tat makes me detest sch.

seriously have to consider my options if i fail econs..of cus dropping to poly is a highly likely option for me..

but there r things in tjc that i find hard to let go..the frens,the team n all..

AIYA HECK LA..come what may...


-dickson

just gt back my promos result today..

flunked chem n failed maths n physics by some marks..i just hope tat my results for phy n maths can be moderated to a pass..as for chem,its hopeless ald because my marks are so low that even if it is moderated lik 3 or 4 times,i will still fail):

my wish for now is very very simple..just let me promote!!
sick n tired of worrying so damn much for my results..

i m so so disgusted with all these..):

saw tis at asheem's blog n decided to hav a go at it!!got tis answers..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

went to luojie's hostel for pw on tue n spent a dreadful 6 hrs there..omg 6 hrs of pw can u imagine?!?!
towards the end all of us were so damn lethargic ald la!! actually wanted to bowl wif denisa after tat but was quite lazy so we called it off..

went shopping on wed wif my ian n xt..we shopped here n there,ate lunch n continued shopping till we drop!i muz admit tat we guys r jux nt made for shopping cus after only lik 1 hr plus we were ald complaining and whining away..ended the day wif a game of pool at ehub..initially wented to c rashvin off at the airport but as our timing kinda clash, we didnt..

its ok bro..see u in dec!!

today was quite a fun day but only towards the end of the day cus me,denisa,esther n Binghao went safra to play!!darts,pool,bowl n table soccer..all in the space of 2 hrs plus!!wa shiok la sia!!

i hate going to school tis few days because of OP presentation which kinda kill my mood for anything..just wan2 get it over n done with la wth!!

but for now,POOL is the new love(:(: